The Un-Edited Tales of a Married Working 20 Something Year Old Mother: Thirty Tales

In two years I will be Thirty. My daughter will be three. My marriage will be three.

In two years I will accomplish three things.

1. Graduate College
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I don’t know what those other two things are yet- and that part is scary.

I am giving myself two years, my finally twenty something years- to push it harder, go a little bit further, get a little more uncomfortable and accomplish my wildest dreams.

Why thirty? Why not?! It is a time-frame to work towards. It’s not a deadline, it’s not game over. It is just a measurable amount of time to start a new decade off right.

So bare with me while I figure it out- figure me out and reach past myself into the future.

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And of course there will be resources. I am already so ridiculously excited I received my Whitney English Day Designer in the mail! It took me awhile to justify the cost, but I can already tell it is well beyond worth it. For a girl that likes writing things down, this takes the cake! Even the wrapping it came in was too beautiful. I may actually keep it bubble wrapped!

So. Scary. But, so exciting.

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Feb. Recap // March’s Project List

Can you believe it is March. I may be in denial. First part of the year is almost over! And barely any rain!

I have not been the best about keeping up on my goals but I am back in go mode so I think we will be seeing some real progress started! First a recap, then on to new challenges!

February’s Short List Progress Recap:

Tax Preparation for 2013. Done and Done. Look at me being all adult!

Picture Frames. From January and still NO new frames on the wall. Sad. Sad Day.

February’s Running List Progress Recap:

Babe’s Baby Album. Ugh. I can’t event talk about it. I want it done so badly but it is just NOT happening.

Bedroom update. I cleaned, does that count?!

Hoarder Room. We tend to through everything we want hidden into our office. Which then makes it not such a useable space. This has been an ongoing project to sort, organize and purge from this room! Oh- and decorate. It needs major decorating!

Blog Facelift. Okay, so I started a new blog. New name and everything. Feels more “me” or true to myself. But I can’t seem to make the transition over. Thoughts? Should I just live here and continue to find my voice? If you are eager to compare check out http://www.onmebecoming.wordpress.com and let me know your thoughts!

Health. I am super proud to share I am now a contributing author over at Beyond The Clothing! Which means not only do I need to focus on my health, I need to write about it! Yikes, but so exciting to be surrounded by a supportive, strong group of women! Please, please check it out HERE.

March Short List:

Order growth chart before the babe turns one and a half. Boom, check that off already! It takes two weeks to get here so we are missing our deadline a bit but at least it’s on order!

New Day Planner. Check! Look at me, ahead of the curve. But seeing as it is March and I am just now getting around to ordering one, that also makes me a bit behind. Details!

Switch Cable Providers: To none. Yep, that is right, our goal is to get rid of digital cable asap. We are spending way to much for a handful of shows. As long as I can continue to watch Pretty Little Liars when we are all good!

March Running List:

See all of the above. I feel like I have zero room to add anything new when these huge looming projects are still on my list. Things like “paint the bathroom” are going to have to wait.

What is on your To Do List?

The Un-Edited Tales of a Married Working 20 Something Year Old Mother: Toddler Tales

I have been fooling myself into thinking that I love this age. I do not. At just shy of 16 months I feel like we are getting a very early taste of the toddler twos. And it doesn’t taste good.

 

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The Selfie taken by my daughter when she magically managed to hijack my phone

Don’t get me wrong. I love how interactive she is, I love that she mimics what we say, has a strong imagination, can play effortlessly with herself and others. I do not love the opinions, the tantrums, the yelling, the throwing of the sippy cup (as well as other various food pieces) and the new found clingyness she gets to whomever she has momentarily decided to be her favorite.
This stage has also been put the most weight on my marriage. Nap time has dwindled down to (sometimes) two naps a day and awake time is spent running, leaping and using the word “No” far too frequently. Getting on pajamas some nights feels more like training for an Olympic marathon and patience for just about everything can wear a little thin. There is less time to connect, less mom and dad time. Which makes it all the more important for play dates with the grandparents and movie dinner dates for us.
If this is a taste of what to come- then at least we are learning how to weather the storm as a team. But damn if it isn’t exhausting.

I love my family. I love my daughter. That goes without saying. Watching her try and run around the park, chasing the dog may be the actual reason I am on this earth. Why there are not museums full of pictures of toddlers trying to attempt…well anything really… is beyond me. Mona Lisa has nothing on my kid’s smile.
Toddlerhood is not for the faint of heart. I find myself crossing my fingers I get a nice long morning nap out of her while secretly hoping she wakes up so we can keep playing and cuddling. It is one big roller coaster that puts knots in your stomach in line and keeps you coming back for more!
*Note: I wrote this a couple of weeks ago and I can say that as we approach one and a half things are getting easier and much more fun. She is now able to communicate with us about what book she wants to read, when she is done with dinner, and even call the dog. With this comes more opinions but at least I am not throwing rocks in dark trying to figure her out!*

 

Weekly Distract // Vegas Getaway

Well… it is officially back to reality after my Vegas getaway. The workweek has set in- but at least the sun is beginning to shine and I can get back to my much loved lunch time hikes around the vineyards.
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(Wynn Buffet. Do it!)

Rose. Rabbit Lie. Las Vegas’ newest, 53 million dollar (yes… I said 53 Million!) experience. It is your typical nightclub/lounge/dance party/show with a whole lotta yummy food. This place pulled out all the stops- down to the silverware. Gorg. We missed our dinner reservations due too many flight delays but were still able to sneak into the music lounge for a little late night menu (duck fat fries- caviar flat-bread- doughnuts- what, what?! O M G I didn’t even mention the Brussels Sprouts!) I want to go back. Now. And maybe even dance the night away next time. And eat. Much more eating.

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Unroll.me. Can you believe my inbox actually looked like that?! To be honest- that is three different emails. But no one person should have that many emails. Do I really need to be subscribed to multiple Victoria’s Secret emails (and you know they send roughly 3 a day!) What is a girl to do?! Turn to Google- of course! I stumbled up Unroll.me which let’s you basically bulk unsubscribe or get one nice pretty email a day with all your random offers. Genius. Sign me up. Love it. This morning I had four…count them four… emails waiting for me instead of 400. A marketing team’s nightmare. A saving grace for me!

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Books. I just actually purchased two books on Amazon. I would love to be able to tell you the last time I read a book was last month. Um. It was two years ago. While pregnant, on the beach. And it was fabulous. I ordered Gone Girl (jumping onto that bandwagon) and Tori Spelling’s new book Spelling It Like It Is (because I have to. No matter how much makeup she wears. She’s my girl.). Hoping that I might actually make the time to read them- even if it just means on our next road trip.

Buckle Toys. My child is obsessed with buckling things. She has to help with the car seat straps, the high chair straps, cart cover straps. Ugh. Obviously this is a safety hazard as we can’t leave her unbuckled just so she can play with them! This  toy is now on rush order to our home! Enough buckles so mom doesn’t have to attempt to reach into the back seat to unbuckle every five seconds. Smartest invention ever.

Ulta. I need a serious trip to my local Ulta. After following a couple different beauty blogs and other similar posts I realize I am majorly lacking in the fun beauty products department. What is on my list? A dotted eye liner, a bright pink blush, a fabulous leave in conditioner, a killer primer and a great makeup remover. If I am really feeling spunky maybe even a BB cream I keep reading so much about. I am sure my list will keep growing but a girl needs the essentials!

Jan. Recap // February’s Project List

January’s Short List:

Organize all photographs from the babe’s first year. Done. Bam.

Clean out the Nursery. I have organized our binder (where I keep toy warranties, furniture instructions, medical bill summaries, etc.), cleaned out clothes and gave them to friends with babes, dumped old supplies and toys. So sad to see some of the baby things go but so nice to feel like I have a handle on all things Babe again!

Clean out my clothes. This really should be added to my running list. I have a hard time getting rid of clothes because you just never know when you may want that one black sweater again, or if those too big jeans may fit during the winter hibernation months. But I am consistently pulling out pieces and discarding them as I go, mostly to make more room!

Picture Frames. Ha. This has had zero progression. Oops. So much for harping on the husband!

January’s Running List:

Once pictures are organized, begin the babe’s baby album.Haven’t. Even. Started. Bad me.

Bedroom Update. Progress on this was halted during the flu sickness but should be picking back up after my trip. I am still trying to justifying buying 8 of these beauties. When I know I should be more practical and settle for these.

Blog Facelift. I hope ya’ll have enjoyed reading a bit more of my personal life; struggles, successes and what not. I have lots more planned for this year!

Keep up on my Health. Again- getting sick through a huge bump into this one. But we have started hiking again, both at work and at
February’s Short List:
Tax Preparation for 2013. Wow, I sound like such an adult! Scary.
February’s Running List:
Hoarder Room. We tend to through everything we want hidden into our office. Which then makes it not such a useable space. This has been an ongoing project to sort, organize and purge from this room! Oh- and decorate. It needs major decorating!

Seeing as January’s list still needs some attention and February is a short month (with two mini trips planned!) this is it. Wish me luck.

The Un-Edited Tales of a Married 20 Something Year Old Working Mother: Career Tales

Around New Years I posted that I wanted this blog to start getting personal again. Often times it is much easier hide behind the illusion of perfection or lightheartedness then to face the reality that you are in fact human. But in an effort to stay true to myself, and this blog, here goes nothing.

I always knew I wanted to be something great. My dreams bounced from buyer for a high-end department store, children’s bookstore owner, wedding dress model (ah- the aspirations of an 8 year old), to a career in marketing and back again. But I also knew I always wanted to be a mother.

My career path happened mostly on accident. I decided at the old age of 20 to start school. I opted for a merchandising program at a prestigious private school. This also came with a high end price tag- but more on my student loans later. While working toward my degree I also got my first, real adult job at a bank. Which lead to more banking, and eventually a job as a staff accountant at a small winery. Fast forward 8 years and I have one class to go to graduate and am still working for wineries.

I won’t get into all the details- but working and meeting my husband and getting married and having a baby has consumed my years. I still want to graduate, and still plan to, but there have been so many other things that have come up along the way.

I have fulfilled my dream of becoming a mother. Which is in itself something beyond great. But now I stand on a path looking forward not so sure if I can see the path of a successful career. Was school a waste? Never says my mother. Should I have put off marriage and babies and thrown myself into a career? I can barely type the words that life seems so sad now that I know what being a wife and mother is all about.

I find myself on this path daydreaming often about where to go. I see myself picking up a camera and beginning to capture the beauty that other photographers have captured of me. I think about waiting a few more years until the babe is in school and joining one of the amazing companies I have always longed to work for, like Kate Spade or Victoria’s Secret. I picture myself settled down with another baby and a happy home of running errands and scrubbing the kitchen floor.

I would like to think I have endless possibilities. But now is the time where I need to get my feet moving forward. Maybe not directly toward something- just forward…

“I’ve learned that making a ‘living’ is not the same thing as ‘making a life’.”
Maya Angelou

I know I want to make a life that I can look back on and feel accomplished and successful- while still feeling present. Am I asking for it all? Can I have my cake and eat it too? I sure hope so!

 

Weekly (Sickly) Distract

It is super (not) funny that my very last item on my January list was my health. Because we all came down with a horrible flu/cold/feel like crap something or other over the weekend and I have been trying to muster up enough energy to work and take care of the kiddo without passing out from exhaustion. I went to bed last night at 8:30pm and I am surprised I made it that long.

Load up on the vitamin C people! And every other vitamin and flu shot out there!

With that being said- there are the few things on my mind other then getting better

Victoria’s Secret Semi Annual Sale:  Scored two amazing strapless bras that actually fit and stay up. Tried them on in the store and ordered online with free shipping code SHIP50. It has been so long since I have had a great fitting strapless bra!

Bath and Body Works: Also loaded up on a ton of hand soap. Cannot beat $3 with $10 off!

Still searching for the perfect Vegas dress. Nelly.com is moving higher on my list of great clothing websites. Be sure to check it out.

This. I die. Words gone. (Caution: do not read this if you are somewhere needing to be quiet.) I may have to start watching The Bachelor just so I can laugh along with The Knotty Bride.

Okay- I know this is not the most thought provoking post but when you feel like I do… it’s the little things.

Stay healthy everyone!